suddenly feel like writing in english. went to book binding workshop today, i was actually expecting SO MUCH MOre. but i still liked it. eversince i started pursuing this course i’ve become highly critical about other’s design. thats bad in a way that i find myself becoming meaner and meaner. i used to avoid criticizing people cos sometimes i dun like being criticized. but im trying to embrace them anyway. thats one thing to note. after the workshop, i accidentally watched the jodie foster?’s film on a plane. she looks like my secondary school art teacher. hahahaha. we were planning to freshen up our house a little bit today in the first place but we blew the plan. haha. nice. another day like sunday. tmr is heep yunn fun fair. i wanna go, i dun wanna go. you see the contradition? right. ah, one thing to remember, yesterday i saw this guy in the train station, he looked confused. agnes and carmen said it’s my chance haha i just went over and said where you wanna go and im sure i scared him. wahaha nevermind though, he said thank you. but hey i wasnt trying to hit on him you see he must think that i was some kind of slut which im not. and yeah, the concert. felt excited from the beginning to end. love the heavy bass. carmen said; haha it seems like people will naturally fall in love with the singer after going to his or her concert even though one isnt one of the fans in the first place. haha dress code for yesterday, oversize clothes and cap. hahaha. burger king. i swear i will stop my observation. haha. of all kind really. hahaha i swear. the grapes are always sour to me. fine, let’s do it. im used to my way of living anyway and i dun need refreshment and changes. sometimes i got myself so tangled up in something called dot dot dot. and dot dot dot is doing me so bad that i had ansomnia for almost a week because of it. ai. dun wanna ruin my body with my own hands. who mentioned goal achiever in the other day? well im a goal achiever, who never achieve any of them. hahaha laziness is one hell of a problem but i cant help. complaint-loving is yet another weakness. have you discovered any unusual reactions? i think im having some problems with myself up there. i find ding ding ding so normal and yet my mind is constantly antagonizing against my very thoughts. one part of me is yelling go and the other, plays the ethnic card. hahaha im murdering you guys hahaha. whts so serious?! but now i think the main problem is ding ding ding. ai. i’ll forget about it. i insist to stand on my dignity. but thats just a word isnt it just a ucking word. why im afraid to lose it so darn much i dun understand why. but some my front my facade and my false presence is gonna come down ruthlessly to expose those i intend to hide. there is of course a solution to all these. not having one of those f words and thats it. if i dun hv them i wont be threatened by them thts the logic. doesnt matter if its wrong. i wont give a damn after i done writing this entry. as usual. subtlety. hahaha i love bullshitting is there such a word as manshitting ha i wonder. dun be silly sadie lau but i cant stop you know my fingers seems to be moving automatically. i dun think they’ll stop until beep beep beep soothes my anxiety. right thts the deal so why dun you check it? internet. start to break up with it. i think i rely on it just too much. same as dot dot dot you should nveer let yourself indulged in it. you’ll drown. yes i cant swim so i’d better get out of it soon. HA. does action speak louder than words? haha my words are always louder though. hey you twisted the logic of the idiom. so what. no what just trying to remind you. fine i think my fingers are slowing down now so i may take this opportunity to stop cos they;ll become active real soon.